“Because he will grip you by the shoulders and wrench you around and he will bring his bristly mouth to yours and blow
down your throat
you are so full
light.”—You Better Not Cry by Augusten Burroughs (via coffeestainedheart)
"there is time to be by your side/ already more than alive.."
playlist: grouper - come softly (for daniel d.) (a i a: alien observer) brightblack morning light - friend of time (brightblack morning light) bonnie prince billy & the cairo gang - someone coming through (the wonder show of the world) dirty three - distant shore (ocean songs) vic chestnutt - dimples (skitter on takeoff) jack rose - mountaintop lamento (two originals of jack rose) 200 years - more than alive (200 years) gil scott-heron - i’ll take care of you (brook benton) (i’m new here) david sylvian and nine horses - serotonin (burnt friedman remix) (snow borne sorrow) swans - nathalie neal (to be kind) hiss tracts - windpipe gtrs. (shortwave nights) lowered - movement of slowly dying waves (lost seas) richard buckner - ariel ramirez (since) derek rogers - swift (prevais) vanessa rossetto - whole stories (whole stories) ambarchi/ o’malley/ dunn - sometimes (shade themes from kairos) greg kelley & jason lescalleet - consultation (conversations) big brave - dead horse (an understanding between people) ilyas ahmed - in desire (arroyo)
"your eight letters spelling out the sun/ making sure that we’re the only ones.."
playlist: trembling bells - adieu england (abandoned love) boxhead ensemble - far gone/ big sky (the last place to go) morgen - love (morgen) love - a house is not a motel (forever changes) july - dandelion seeds (july) low - $20 (c’mon) richard skelton - little knives (vérsa éan) richard skelton - ascend (vérsa éan) bardo pond - side to side (yntra) circuit des yeux - bud & gin (overdue) low - witches (c’mon) circuit des jeux - my name is rune (overdue) bardo pond - the cawl (yntra) circuit des yeux - acarina (overdue) magic markers - last of the lemach line (boss) swans - just a little boy (for chester burnett) (to be kind)
playlist: low - plastic cup (the invisible way) le fruit vert - la castiglione (passiflore) akron family - sorrow boy ( akron family) ar - seed memory (succession) bardo pond -the stars behind (bardo pond) flying saucer attack - the season is ours (flying saucer attack) swans - to be kind (to be kind) magik markers - don’t talk in your sleep (balf quarry) father murphy - let the wrong rise with you/ they will always fail you (simultaneous listening edit) (pain is on our side now) bardo pond - a crossing (yntra) silent land time machine - dealing w/ doubt (i am no longer alone with myself…) circuit des yeux - lithonia (overdue) symbol - clear passage (online architecture) swans - oxygen (to be kind) bardo pond - don’t know about you (bardo pond)
playlist: richard buckner - confession (our blood) john mcgrath - four hills (wire tapper 33) richard skelton - noon hill wood (landings) christina vantzou - going backwards to recover that which was left behind (no. 2) hiss tracts - halo getters (shortwave nights) pharmakon - bang bang (nancy sinatra) (todo muere vol. 4) swans - bring the sun/ toussaint l’ouverture (to be kind) father murphy - let the wrong rise with you (pain is on our side) philip jeck - i just wanted to know (surf) bardo pond - push yer head (batholith) magik markers - american sphinx face (surrender to the fantasy) pharmakon - crawling on bruised knees (abandon) philip jeck - above (stoke) william parker quartet - etchings (live in houston 2007) (wood flute songs: anthology/ live 2006-2012) bardo pond - the path (peri) bardo pond - slip away (batholith) richard buckner - william + emily (the hill)
playlist: grouper - you never came (cover the windows and the wall) interbellum - some rather poor advice (this was an important place in their lives) labradford - comfort (a stable reference) richard buckner - mood (surrounded) richard skelton - bark, xylem (unabridged) (ivystrung) swans - some things we do (to be kind) bohren & der club of gore - welk (dolores) jean sebastien truchy - neither (radio edit) (total eclipse: live on ckut 90.3 fm) tim hecker - ghost writing pt. 1 (haunt me, haunt me, do it again) letha rodman melchior - send in the clowns (stephen sondheim) (handbook for mortals) hiss tracts - for the transient projectionist (shortwave nights) leyland kirby - wdtftcs fifteen (we drink to forget the coming storm) eyeless in gaza - to steven (plague of years) fennesz - the liar (becs) swans - kirsten supine (to be kind) circuit des yeux - helen you bitch (overdue) bardo pond - what are their names (david crosby) (terrastock six) the dead c - aime ton prochain comme toi meme (white house)
You may write me down in history With your bitter, twisted lies, You may trod me in the very dirt But still, like dust, I’ll rise.
Does my sassiness upset you? Why are you beset with gloom? ‘Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells Pumping in my living room.
Just like moons and like suns, With the certainty of tides, Just like hopes springing high, Still I’ll rise.
Did you want to see me broken? Bowed head and lowered eyes? Shoulders falling down like teardrops, Weakened by my soulful cries?
Does my haughtiness offend you? Don’t you take it awful hard ‘Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines Diggin’ in my own backyard.
You may shoot me with your words, You may cut me with your eyes, You may kill me with your hatefulness, But still, like air, I’ll rise.
Does my sexiness upset you? Does it come as a surprise That I dance like I’ve got diamonds At the meeting of my thighs?
Out of the huts of history’s shame I rise Up from a past that’s rooted in pain I rise I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide, Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear I rise Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear I rise Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave, I am the dream and the hope of the slave. I rise I rise I rise.
- Dr. Maya Angelou, April 4, 1928 – May 28, 2014
THANK YOU, Dr. Maya Angelou.
You and your work have been a constant presence in my life.. when i was a very young woman, You inscribed a book of your poetry to me when my father met you in an airport lounge: “I join your father in wishing you joy!” Your handwriting was wide and bold. You taught me so much about the struggle of life through your works, to overcome horror and hardship and pain by choosing to really live. this world has been made better by Your existence, by the lasting legacy of eloquent humanity in Your works.
May You rest in profundity, power, and eternal peace. Thank You for your eternity.
"i sleep in the belly of oceans/ and i sleep in the belly of truth.."
playlist: songs: ohia - the black crow (the lioness) threshold houseboys choir - so free it knows no end (form grows rampant) talk talk - myrrhman (laughing stock) wrekmeister harmonies - pittsburgh (recordings made in public spaces vol. 1) swans - just a little boy (for chester burnett) (to be kind) counter silence - when the clocks have stopped (wire tapper edit) (wire tapper 33) ben frost - nolan (aurora) father murphy - they will all fail you (pain is on our side) hiss tracts - …shortwave nights (shortwave nights) father murphy - bones got dry + despite all the grief (simultaneous play edit) (pain is on our side) labradford - eero (a stable reference) silent land time machine - kissa (i am no longer alone with myself..) labradford - sedr 77 (a stable reference) swans - she loves us (to be kind) low - nothing but heart (c’mon) chelsea wolfe - i died with you (unknown rooms)
playlist: maica mia - jonny o (total eclipse: live on ckut 90.3 fm) leyland kirby - wdtftcs twenty-seven (we drink to forget the coming storm) low - majesty/ magic (c’mon) jim fox - colorless sky became fog (wire tapper 33) tara jane o’neil - bellow below as above (where shines new light) circuit des yeux - title unknown (c.d.y. & victoria) (glacial fault/ title unknown 7-inch) hiss tracts - slowed rugs (shortwave nights) eyeless in gaza - falling leaf/ fading flower: goodbye to summer (plague of years: songs and instrumentals 1980-2006) circuit des yeux - nova 88 (overdue) jack rose - yaman blues (two originals of jack rose) nick kuepfer - ladybugs on window, spraypaint on deer carcass (total eclipse: live on ckut 90.3 fm) sharon van etten - dsharpg (epic) eyeless in gaza - she moved through the fair (traditional) (plague of years: songs and instrumentals 1980-2006) hiss tracts - test recording at trembling city (shortwave nights) michael morley - part i (a pavilion of fools) bardo pond - sangh seriatim (refulgo) ben chasny - wedding song (black sand/ wedding song 7-inch)
"something unspoken drew the birds into the night following a light.. "
playlist: tara jane o’neil - the signal, wind (where shines new light) tom carter - untitled (total eclipse: live on ckut 90.3 fm) aj cornell - vertige suspendu (total eclipse: live on ckut 90.3 fm) roj and wolfram wire - it chimes (wire tapper 34) dead rat orchestra - the geshin and the guga (wire tapper 29) leyland kirby - wdtftcs thirty-one (we drink to forget the coming storm) kevin verwijmeren - scenery for a hallway (an introduction to soft) christina vantzou - vancouver island quartet (no. 2) fennesz - pallas athene (becs) wrekmeister harmonies - paris (recordings made in public spaces vol. 1) echo beach - collateral murder (*trigger warning) (drones against drones) michael morley - part vii (the pavilion of fools) renderers - broken banks (a dream of the sea) grails - self hypnosis (black tar prophecies iv) pelt - what remains of filament (burning/ filament/ wires)
"we could rent a car tomorrow and roll through all the thoughts we keep.."
playlist: low - laser beam (things we lost in the fire) akron/family - i’ll be on the water (akron/family) tara jane o’neil - elemental finding (where shine new light) aaron martin - making rope out of eyelashes (worried about the fire) a winged victory for the sullen - minuet for a cheap piano no. 1 (atomos vii) jasper tx - abandon (an index of failure) fennesz - sav (bécs) emeralds - before your eyes (just to feel anything) a winged victory for the sullen - atomos vii (greenhouse re-interpretation) (atomos vii) letha rodman melchior - mare serenitatis (handbook for mortals) philip jeck - spirits up (surf) oren ambarchi - corkscrew (grapes from the estate) kinski - i think i blew it (airs above your station) symbol - new china (online architecture) nina nastasia - we never talked (run to ruin) coppice - hoist spell (machinefabriek’s philicorda version) (hoist spell extensions) le fruit vert - exposition (passiflore) akron/family - afford (akron/family) jason molina - don’t it look like rain (let me go let me go let me go) richard buckner - roll (devotion & doubt) neil young & crazy horse - cortez the killer (zuma)